Oh, Waiter, as in someone around here with some PATIENCE!

Well, hhhmmm, stepping back to analyze my lack of recent entries, I would have to surmise that:

blogging from this crappy laptop on a nightly basis from the middle of wireless he-- has proven to be more of a challenge than I (my lazy self) anticipated. May I have some cheese to go with this wwhhiinnee?! Basically, I just can't tolerate the keyboard, and the multiple disconnections. Another refill to the top of my whine glass, please!

Don't read me wrong - I have so TOTALLY appreciated this time away from reality (I return to my real home in the central mountains of Laundry, ID, on Friday). I have had a lot of solitude, stretched out in 60 second intervals between daughter/son/daughter/dog/daughter/son/husband/those highly annoying dishes that magically redirty themselves/daughter/dog interruptions. Please tell me that you other blogger moms out there can appreciate a STRONG desire for just 30 MEASLY MINUTES in a row??!!

You'll have to forgive my complete lack of patience - this has to do with my perfectionistic tendencies. One would never in a million light years guess that I am a perfectionist, especially if one were to judge my house-keeping abilities, or the blatantly obvious lack of. I am the all-or-nothing type of perfectionist, which means I spend an exorbitant amount of time doing, you guessed it, nothing. You know, if you can't do it 'right', why bother?

Perfectionism is just really fear in disguise (a real ugly, ill-fitting one, I might add). Fear of judgement, criticism, failure, etc., etc., etc. Mostly, the fear of not being good enough. So, if we are constantly trying to use the tape measure of the Martha Stewart mentality, the Supermom Syndrome, do you think we always measure up? We cannot airbrush away our imperfections, so we should try a little harder to embrace them.

Yes, you read me correctly; I said, embrace your imperfections, which means loving yourself in spite of them. I may be getting a wee bit of inspiration from Keira Knightly (recently refusing to bump up her cup size in publicity photos). However, I have let my all-or-nothing attitude keep almost 50 extra pounds on my frame since I had our first child, which has now been over 12 years ago, so I think my excuse meter has expired!! I have let my perfectionism get in the way of some much needed healthy weight loss (waiting for the ideal conditions to start the perfect exercise program backed up with the perfect diet), and I have to hope that I haven't realized the error in my thinking too late.

The older I get, the more I realize how little I know, which has been good kindling for this whole blog idea. As many mistakes as I've made it my life thus far, I should have a roaring inferno blazing here in no time.